don't be a stranger

I hate to think about it, but let's face it; for whatever reason, we're not as close as we used to be. I don't care whose fault it is, or what the fault is - the most important thing is whether we can and want to fix it.

I know I do. Do you?

We've gone through alot of hell, and more of heaven. That's what I'd like to think. Am I just being naive? Your call. Most of the time, I'll be willing to negotiate, to compromise, but not to shut you up so that we can resume our happy distorted lives: Don't you think it's worth it to try and save something that means so much to someone?

I admit, I didn't give you as much attention as I should have when you needed help the most. For that I don't ask to be forgiven if you cannot give it to me. But surely I don't deserve the cold shoulder? For whatever little or much I've done, surely you can grant a chance to keep our friendship alive?

Sure, I may look like the type that can take everything in stride, but in the end, I'm only human. You may protect yourself with the words you say and the actions you do, but is it worth it at the expense of hurting me?

Maybe I'm not much, but that never means I'm nothing.

Angry? Sad? Hurt? All three at once and I can only come to a conclusion: I'm confused.
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Maybe I'm thinking too much. As much of a plea it sounds, it serves me as a reminder of sorts from various people I've met in my life - my parents, my friends, my relatives, myself even. A reminder of my faults and whatever little virtues that I may possess. Humans naturally have crapass memory; we need training in that.