i am weirded out.

I seriously had the weirdest dreams last night. I attribute it to the nervousness and the sheer wreckage of nerves that I was in thinking that my results were out today. (oh crap I realized it this evening that it's supposed to be out tomorrow)
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First part; the results. Obviously going onto WES, clicking the dreaded link to get to the results. Already I could see it, 1D (I think it was a low 70s) and 2 very miserable-looking Ps, maybe 55 and below... (afterthought: I only sat for 3 papers this sem but in this dream I was sitting for 4) And then, and then.... I realized one of them didn't have a mark on it. It was for an Environmental paper (WTF again I don't even take science so I don't know what that was doing there) Obviously, I freaked. WTF how could I not get a mark when I went for the exam? And the worst possibilities came to light - I forgot to write my number on the exam booklet, someone hates me etc. Dahlah the paper susah sangat and now the fact that I could be failing cause I didn't do something as simple as this, it wasn't my way to go man! My mom was freaking out, and my dad too.

Eventually after I was over that I decided to go to uni and see whether there was anything else I could do. They suggested what I feared the worst, but funnily enough they let me sift through all the marked exam papers to see if I could identify mine for them to be able to give me a mark - after all if I was the only one with no mark and if they had marked an extra paper surely that extra paper would be mine.

Anyway. I sat there all day looking for the paper, and while I was looking, I thought.. "if someone else didn't write their ID either then there'd be 2, how would I know which was mine? What if they took the one which incidentally had a much lower mark, that would be damn unpleasant too.." (afterthought: I realize I should be able to recognize my own handwriting if it ever came to it) I kept worrying and worrying and worrying that I wouldn't find the paper...

note: the dream derailed from there, I never knew what the ending was.. I remember feeling like a mess of nerves as I half-awoke from this one, but I drifted back into more unsettling things..
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Second part involved some very lesbian-ey stuff.

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I won't exactly say what we were doing but the other girl and "I" (I presumed it was me since it was like from a first-person POV) were pretty intimate with each other. It was in an apartment, some strangely dodgy-ish place somewhere in Malaysia (afterthought: haha I find this part weirdly funny now that I think of it.. after all it didn't exactly have a/c and I remember the walls of the room being painted a minty green for some reason, like those cheapo motels..) where everyone else (both genders) was gaming/watching tv/eating snacks and we snuck away. It definitely involved alot of whispering (afterthought: We didn't want to get caught? It was more exciting that way? @__@) and when they eventually called for us, she whispered to me, "Shh, let them think we're asleep."

afterthought: They say dreams are your subconscious mind telling you of your most innate desires. (I want to be a lesbian? erm, no, I don't think I felt that way. This part of the dream for me is like what it probably would be like if I got into a lesbian's shoes, like getting into the character of a good book) After giving this some thought, hmm.. even though 'we' were quite intimate with each other and all there was no feeling of 'love', not in the conventional sense anyway.. just the feeling of comfort and the rush of joy from it all.. oh yes, and the lust was overwhelming it forced me to wake up. No kissing though, which was abit strange despite the situation. I guess for me, kissing is a very personal thing, so no kissing, not even in dreams with fictional beings. I think I would prefer to save that for someone really special that exists =P

The end? Well I don't remember the middle bits but I think that's the gist of it.
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And then I woke up.

Drank some Koko Black chocolate, was pretty full after that XDXDXD as a side note, I got an extra big pack of chocolate flakes since Auntie Ming promised me some when she came down from Melbourne yayay!

went to KLCC and back. Originally to give my dad a spare something but he found his original AFTER I reached KLCC. Bah! haha~ so I went to have lunch with him, dressed like a slob and all. And and and right the guy sitting at the next table creepily looks like that Msian chinese singer Guang Liang. Gosh that was weird! I mean he came in with an entourage of people too, including a camera man and a personal assistant and some other people, whatever they might look like. Maybe it was the hair or the face, I have no idea.
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Today was definitely one of the weirder days I've had.
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As a side note: OMG please don't let me predict my results so accurately! Let them be okay.. T__T I'm seriously hoping for at least credits and above! I will seriously cry if my dream was an omen.. Great, now I'm afraid for tomorrow. Just freaking great.

*sob!