of difficult choices
A little while ago a door-to-door salesperson came to my place. A don't regret saying that she's a really nice person, but salespeople are of a typical genre. They try to sweet-talk you, then some of the more unfortunate ones get conned in the process. She was going on about a scholarship, and how she had to earn it by doing this. When it came down to the money, all I could read was sales invoice. If that didn't make my eyes and ears prick up and wonder, it got me thinking. Mostly it was guama that did the talking. She looked at me, as though in search of an answer. All I told her was to decide as she thought right. She did, and the pleading began. As she left, I could tell she was on the verge of a helpless frustration. I could imagine her wringing her hands in despair. But reality bites. I also could read the signs of agitation on guama's face, how dealing with them is a difficult choice. And for the weirdest reason, I felt a little guilty. Guilty cause we had led her on, although in my opinion she was trying to get something going though we had made our point. sigh.
Of this I reimbuke my faith in guama. She is a strong person. I still need to learn that from her, I admit, I am a coward in many things. My parents tell me this time and time again, but still....Even my teachers tell me to have faith in myself.
In school, well. Since exams are over, it was judgement day. I didn't do that well for chem and addmath. I actually thought of addmath as fun mainly cause it was challenging, but I don't sync with numbers I guess. I still score pretty bad at it. At the rate I'm going I could end up getting a C. Or a B.
*choke choke* My throat's stuck and I'm starting to sound weird.'Tis the flu season once again, so catching this seems to be an annual event. I wonder why I catch it. I thought once you've caught it your body develops antibodies against that particular pathogen that causes it, so by right I shouldn't be catching it anymore. And inevitably I catch it again, year after year, at least once. Odd.
