tutorial

ugh..In truth I don't want to remember it anymore...

In a word: horrid.

Ok. So I didn't bomb them as I said I would. In fact, I was pretty much compliant, since I think the rest were just desperate to get it over with. And so that was that.

Didn't try wearing anything fancy, wasn't in the mood to anyway. Except for my favourite long coat~ haven’t worn it in quite a while. mrs angelene claims it looks like a lab coat. *frowns* heey, I bought it from padini ok..

It was pretty much fake. Since everyone had plenty of paper and all the text in it I'm pretty sure mrs angelene couldn't turn a blind eye even if she wanted to. So yeah, I could see the panic in everyone's faces when she started turning the paper over. Especially for mine. I did up one, and when they saw it, this was the reaction:

Whoa man, how are we going to memorize this in less than 2 hours?!
What the...why's your topic so difficult?
Whasai..what do you think we are?

Well...what should I say... so sorry that I have a higher level of command in English than you do?! @_@ Ok, no use getting angry at them..I guess it's over. Just feverently hope that I pass.

I felt my heart sinking the moment she (mrs angelene) started turning their papers over. It would mean that everyone would go around mechanically answering and the discussion section sounded more like a rehearsal attempt, which nonetheless was pretty unconvincing.

siiiiiiiigh.

And then again, it could be that I'm just extaggerating things. I don't know what to make of it. Somehow I wasn't feeling convinced I did okay even though that was what everyone was saying. I felt I could have done so much better than this pathetic excuse.

I don’t blame my tutorial mates; I don’t know why either. I don’t like blaming people for no good reason. I always tell myself; there are always two sides to a coin. And anyway it could be my own fault for not trying hard enough; I know I have this bad habit of doing things at an ‘acceptable’ level even though I definitely have the ability to go beyond it and do things at an ‘amazing’ level. It’s my own fault anyway that things turned out as it did. After all, I sure didn’t do much to make things better. So in a way, I have to take some of the blame.

Listening to: younha - houkiboshi