self-sustainable unit

It's mean for me to say this as I know I have people out there who really care for me, but I have to say I preferably choose not to trouble them with my problems. I mean, you guys already have your own set of problems to deal with - the last thing you need to hear is someone else's problems. I mean I'm more than happy to hear you out if you want to tell me, I'll never turn away. Just that I think people never like to hear unhappy stuff - so why unload it unto them? It'll only give them one more extra thing to worry about, which is one thing too many already. I'm stubborn like that, I guess. And sometimes I feel the need to turn somewhere and unleash it all to a living being but I just don't know where to look just because I've already gotten used to living, breathing and believing this reason.

I have a feeling I'm going to offend someone just by saying this or being hypocritical or ironic or whatever it is, but at this point of time just don't judge me - I believe that you do unto people whatever you want them to do unto you - and I don't want to actually be mean and hurtful. Being judgemental is mean and hurtful - I guess it can be a form of discrimination? I'm always trying, but I never know if it's going to be my best. Therefore I try in hopes that it is enough for just about everyone.

I tell myself I'm a self-sustainable unit. I tell everyone else I'm a self-sustainable unit.
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Why am I so weak.