take a deep breath.

haha I just read aichan's post, she's quite contented with life as it is now~ Even if it's getting herself locked in at risu's. She seems to be kept "busy", which is a good thing as she's happily busy, rolling around in bed and generally slacking like how Guu can go "bunyaaaaaaa~~". 

To cut it short (before I start ranting like guama does), I'm happy for her and that it's working out well between them. 

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As of right now.. man, money *is* a big thing. 

Just looking through on how to finance my life once I go back to pursue Master's, and boy even I can tell it's not going to be easy. Study on one end, work on the other. It's like the Game Of Life, I'm going straight into a massive debt, but with some support from my parents, hopefully minimal. Just working out the loan amount I'll have to take out is scary. *sigh!

I'll get a job, that's for sure. The problem of getting a job.. I will try my best. But I can only be hopeful that with whatever job I *do* get, I get to maximize the 20-hour work week and earn some spiffy pocket money. And with that money, I hope to be able to totally cover my living expenses. With what's left after that deduction, I don't know whether to save all of it or to allocate some to paying off the fees (which is the biggest hole-burner) or to allocate all of it to paying off the fees. The more desperate part says to allocate all to the fees, you know, like to lessen the burden and pay off the debt quickly... but a little part in me would like some spending money to spoil myself or for absolutely emergency use.

This will be my challenge. I want it, therefore I will do what it takes. *nodnods. Without killing myself in the process, of course.

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What a time to screw up. wadafark!

I was supposed to meet up ojimaru today.

I reeeeeeeeaaallly thought we were meeting Friday, which would fall nicely into place after my climbing session with cw. Which might also explain why I thought it was Friday, since it would fall so nicely in place.

HOW STUPID IS THAT WEIH!

So I was happily living with that thought, till a couple of minutes ago when I decided to get my phone.. and I realized that I had 3 missed calls and 3 texts from the said victim and I froze on the spot. 

"oh. shiet."

End of story. For now, I'm still reeling in guilt over my stupid assumption. Plus, I won't have the chance to make it up to him until he gets back in a fortnight or thereabouts.

*dies of guilt and embarassment*

PS: oji if you're reading this please don't torture that voodoo of me. T____T