of having faith

I've been battling it out for two days, trying to figure out how to bind data from MySQLDataAdapter to an ObjectList. I think since mobile programming is SO goddamn restrictive (its meant for any browser-enabled mobile device, chunted as well as backward ones so at the base level I gotta cater for the backward ones) I'll probably do some really funky workaround with the MySQLDataReader instead. It'll be long, it'll be messy, but I think I've got a few tricks up my sleeve. There's still some bark in this old dog yet! (dammit I know I'm not an old dog.. its just that figuring this out makes me FEEL old, if you get what I mean.. >_>)

Reason why I've been obsessing over this is the fact that my testing document is due in 1.5 weeks (the Monday after the sem break, DAMN YOU, supervisor..) so I HAVE to try and finish the backend functionality by the end of this week. It's really a do-or-die thing for me.

Not to mention I haven't even read my SE A3 question, and making fairly slow progress with both Network Design & Project Management reports. In a way, thank goodness for groupwork, and on the other hand, curse groupwork. Oh gosh I feel like I'm running out of time again like I was last semester, just that I feel more optimistic now than I was then.
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This year's been pretty rough on me. I know a pretty big part of it's cause I brought it on myself by slacking and what not, but the work is really.. sigh. Scroll up and read. Don't need to repeat myself. But for some reason even in these times of distress I have faith that it'll all work out fine. I don't know where I'm getting this reassurance from but I'll trust myself with this one. Just stick to my guns and work to the best of my ability. Surely it'll be a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Not just my studies, but stuff at home is hard too. Maybe not for me so much as my folks. They've had a rough year so far but I hope and I can see that they still share their nice moments. Like I've said before my family's weird, we have internal strifes but we can still enjoy a good laugh with each other - sometimes it all works out and I for one don't quite know why, but I'm not complaining.

Like that night at qba, we really had some good fun without the cold stares and silent moments. And maybe like that other day where we were uselessly arguing and ended up laughing about the fat and the skinny. The nursery rhyme in question had something to do with a cat in the well.

Found the poem:

Ding, dong, bell, pussy’s in the well.
Who put her in? Little Tommy Thin,
Who pulled her out? Little Tommy Stout,
What a naughty boy was that,
To drown poor Pussy Cat.
Who never did him any harm,
But killed the mice in his father's barn

Not to mention that it seems doubly harder without hirohiro or the nakamas around. We're all scattered everywhere. Can't all my favourite people be in one place?! Ah, such is wishful thinking. But soon, soon, I'll see hirohiro again. I'll meet up with sze, and when el returns, not to mention the following summer when aichan returns. We'll meet. Our bonds will withstand time and overcome tryst and retain the trust.
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I'm enjoying the Piratey Facebook. ARR! It's awfully cute~ XD Rasping like a scurvy cur ain't no swim in the sea.. ye savvy? Me keeps wantin' ter speak like 'em landlubbers.
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Falling in love again with the sweet sound of RYTHEM, the rock spirit in ELLEGARDEN, my fairly old anime tracks as well as angela aki's really good debut singles.. And reminiscing to some really random soundtracks, like hoshigami, Legend of Dragoon and Valkyrie Profile. I need to find the rest of my really old junk music of the 90s. I guess this is one of the reasons I really don't support today's C"rap". But I *do* like home made kazoku and m-flo. Strange. =P