currently frustrated, will cool down soon enough

I sure hope I can get my prom dress.. at the rate things are going I might wear mom's stuff.. I don't want that! What would I feel? Sure, sure, I know its her good intention to not have me spend needlessly. Maybe she thinks it's those things I'll wear once and after that I'll let it rot in the cupbord. If it boils down to that I'll go rent one. And like it or not I WILL have to get one of my own sooner or later. Not that I think mom has bad taste in clothes, she dresses sensibly and quite nice and quite profesionally for a woman..just that... It's my first prom, and the last of my secondary years... I want something to commemorate it, something I can call my own, not your hand-me-downs.

And besides, I can keep it in case there are other formal events. This would also be a good chance for me to get...urm..more used to wearing skirts. I usually don't like wearing it cause it's so troublesome to sit, move around, run...y'know, all those other free things you get to do with shorts on.

Okay, maybe it's me that doesn't want to look like a fish out of water at the event, I want to look as good as everyone else and not having to go around thinking," This is my mom's stuff.. People are going to start asking odd questions, give odd looks, stifle gasps of laughter." I am a self-conscious person when it comes to my social life. I really do care of how I dress, what I look like, what people think of me. If you people out there aren't going to get me, my own conscience would; It's inevitable.

Also, it's not me myself that decides what to be in front of you, it's you. sigh, that's probably why I really don't give a damn about what I look like when I'm at home, or go out to the more comfort-wear-comfort-food-places like the mamak. And enjoy every minute of it. And anyway my brothers look every bit as bad as I do. =D Sort of runs in the family XP (no offense, mom and dad...) and it gives me a sense of freedom, somewhat.