midnight snack

Feel so much better now. Yeah, midnight snacks do wonders to a stuffy nose. A hot cup of Nestum and a biscuit warms the tum, and sets me in a better mood.

I definitely don't understand my mom. She expects me to be filial, but how can I show it to her when she doesn't show any to her own? Like a crab instructing her children to walk straight. I hate the way she talks to guama in that scornful tone..It disgusts me. I say at any rate, a mother is a mother. I don't see the right in treating anyone that way. At least be civil, for cripes' sake.

Sure, sure, I know she's undergoing alot of pressure right now, why do you think I try so hard not to get in the way? I behave cause that's what's required of me. I'd do anything to uphold the little peace left in the house. The guys are definitely defiantly turning a blind ear and deaf eye because they're so goddamn sick of it already. Once or twice might do the trick, but too many times and the gimmick goes stale. Her bad mood gets everyone squeamish and uncomfortable.

Despite me badmouthing her(the unfilial traitorous child that I am XD) I love her as a mother. She's a great cook but doesn't cook much, she has a sweet tooth which I believe she's passed down to all her kids and she's got a dorky laugh which thankfully belongs to her only. I would never want to work under her, I know I'd resign faster than it takes to breathe.

2 days..nah, make it 5 minutes and a day to go to SPM. I say bring it on, let's get it over with~

Just now I felt like it was deja vu. I know I've heard this, seen this and been through this scene vefore, in a dream. The words, time place and actual happening seems to fall into place. That's when it strikes me; "Heyy- I know this! I know what he/she/it is gonna do next!" In the actual sequence of events it happens word for word, same viewpoint, same angle, same feelings. Sounds superficial, but it does happen =D