panic attack #2

I set my alarm, to 8AM.
I slept early too, at 11PM.
Took a bath before I slept too!

Slept at 11PM, thought I'd slept forever, and woke up at 2AM.

"2AM!? I should sleep some more."

Slept at 2AM, and woke up at 4AM.

"Oh shit, seriously, what the hell!?"

Back to sleep I went.

*yawwnnn*

OH SHIT.

I woke up at 12PM, practically missing my first paper of the day (FIT2020). Needless to say, I freaked, panicked, went into hysterics - the works. Every damn thing I felt.

I saw Sam & Vince outside, and when I betrayed despair Sam told me, "Hey chill, the paper's not until 230PM~"

"Yeah, but I had a freaking paper at 930AM!"

Sam was pretty nice actually, he told me to call whoever I could call at the uni and see what available options I had left. Obviously, they told me that I had to apply for a deferred exam. And even if I did, reason being that I overslept won't help my chances. And if that really was the case, I'd have to re-take this unit.

You have no idea how desperate I felt.

I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING RE-TAKE FIT2020!

I just threw on a pair of jeans and walked out to the IT office. Didn't even take my jacket, didn't even take my keys - just my pencilcase, folder, wallet & calculator which I had borrowed from Vince yesterday.

The same few words played in my head:
"How could I have done that? How could I have done that?"

Trying to calm myself down, I talked to dad. Obviously he was in shock as well (I cannot think of anyone who wouldn't) but he was trying to calm me down, telling me to be rational, telling me what I could do, no point trying to attend the exams, go to the faculty, see what they can do...

At the uni though, I was seriously contemplating trying to finish my paper in.. what.. 20 minutes? But I decided against it. I talked to Nicole(IT receptionist), talked to Persia (the ISSU manager), talked to Iqbal(the lecturer).

I am so grateful Iqbal let me take the paper without having to take the deferred exam. I really owe it to him, he's one damn nice guy even though I've been missing alot of his classes. XP Well that was towards the second half of the semester, during the last 3 lectures. He never takes the tutorial sessions anyway so I don't have to feel guilty for that. He actually looked for the people who would allow me to take the exam and he trusted that I hadn't talked to anyone else so there would be no leak. I know with this event he won't have a very good impression of me, but I'm still damn grateful.

Took a quick drink of water and had something to eat (Iqbal just gave me a banana from the pantry which I was thankful to have) and I sat for the paper at the school director's office from 1:00PM - 2:20PM.

-Remember, I have a Marketing paper at 2:30PM-

Before I left for my Marketing paper, the school manager asked me if I would like to take the rest of the paper directly after my Marketing paper. Actually I could have said no, seeing how I'd already finished 80% of the paper (albeit in point form) but I took up the offer anyway, seeing how nice they were on top of allowing me to take the paper in my current situation. Again for which I'm thankful for. The only 'hitch' was that I had to be escorted to and from the Binishell to ensure that I didn't communicate with anyone else about the paper.

*Like I even could; none of my current IT classmates are taking any electives*

On the way, I met jianwern & Hex. They asked me how I was, all I could think of to say was "It's a long story.."

The papers in itself weren't that bad.

For marketing, I know my answers were really quite filled with crap, but I couldn't think of anything else. The 10-mark questions were manageable, but the compulsory 40-mark question and the compulsory 20-mark question were just o__________0 I really didn't remember each of the 6 steps in segmentation, targeting or positioning so I just hurled in everything I knew and hope that something would hit somewhere on the scoreboard. Neither did I understand the first question so I really hope I answered the 2 major questions in relevance, otherwise I'm so grilled.

The Networks paper also wasn't too bad, but I kinda screwed up the multicasting question and I definitely did NOT draw an SPF tree (I don't even know what the hell I drew). Other than that quite a number of questions were similar to the past year questions, and there wasn't any multiple-choice questions (which I somewhat expected and not too overwhelmed by it, but why why why put them on the past year papers and not this year!? T_T) During the last half hour I could hear my tummy organizing a mutiny, and wondered if I should hand in the paper and go home. I'm not used to leaving an exam early, so I didn't. The cries of protest grew louder (yes I swear I could hear my stomach growling in the very quiet office as I was flipping through my answer booklet/question booklet)

The worst part of the day definitely had to be walking home. It was the bloody longest, coldest walk home. It was just 5 minutes, I know, but DAMN it was cold. 7 Celcius dammit! In a t-shirt that I went to sleep in!

At the rate I'm going the entire campus will know my story pretty soon.

At any rate, I'm so glad this is done and over with. The 2 papers which I dreaded the most.

Now, onward.

Systems Analysis & Design tomorrow afternoon (thank the Gods, I think if it was in the morning I'd actually not sleep tonight for fear of not being able to wake up the following day) and the final Web Programming paper the following Wednesday.